Tuesday, September 8, 2009

I Can't See Through These Bushes

Dylan started preschool today. Well, technically he went last year, but it wasn't the same. It was a "Mommy and Me" class, so I went with him, and the program fell apart, (due to lack of involvement), by November.

This year he is in the Two's class again, since he won't turn three until November. (Why are they so strict with the birthdays?!) This year, however, he goes without me. GASP! I need to get a grip.

Now for two mornings of each week, I won't know...
1. What he is doing.
2. Who he is playing with.
3. How he is feeling.
4. How other people are treating him.

For someone who might have control issues, this is difficult. The first three really aren't so bad.
1. He will be playing, doing art projects(bringing home paint splattered clothes with a layer of glue/glitter/or play-doh on them), eating a snack ( I hope he saves some for the other kids!), participating in music time (I hope I know some of the songs he comes home singing, or can at least understand the words!), sitting for circle time (Gosh, I hope he sits!), and going to the bike room, (I hope he doesn't run over anyone!).
2. He will probably play with anyone who wants to play with him. I have a list of the kids names, so that will help decipher the stories I might hear at home.
3. He will most likely be feeling happy, happy, happy! Today, for the first day, I got to stay in the room for a while. There was screaming and wailing by several of the kids. Dylan, on the other hand, walked in and before I could even say "Bye", was off playing.

I think number four is often the hardest for parents. It certainly is for me. For 2 1/2 years now, he has only been treated kindly by the people around him. For the most part, he doesn't know what disappointment, rejection, and cruelty feels like, and I would like to keep it that way. What will he do if someone treats him badly?

Life, out there in the big, scary world, without mommy, is only going to get harder. I guess all I can do is trust that I have helped him develop the self esteem that he needs.

Or, like I told a friend of mine, I could buy a set of binoculars and hide in the bushes.


Anonymous said...

Aw! *hug*
It sounds like he's having fun.

I found out the hard way, since Peanut is in daycare 5 days a week, how he'd react to cruelty. A few months ago a bigger kid pushed him and he did the only thing he knew how, he bit the kid. At first I wasn't pleased, but then I found out the other kid doesn't mess with him anymore. And hopefully, as he learns words (oh, please learn some words, buddy!), he'll find more peaceful methods of discourse.

Also, you could probably wire him up with a microphone so you can spy on, er check on him from a further distance if needed. And I bet they make portable nanny-cams. :)

Burgh Baby said...

I'm going to bet he has the bestest time ever, even though he'll be there without his favorite person.

Anonymous said...

Oddly enough, I worry very little about how the other kids treat Cooper, but worry a great deal about how he treats the other kids . . . I want to know that I have done a decent job of teaching him compassion, empathy, and kindness.

Dylan is going to have a blast, and you will come to cherish those two mornings a week - for every single reason you can think of!

Lisa @ Boondock Ramblings said...

I'll totally hide in the bushes with you, only I'll spy on my son. He isn't going to preschool yet, but I know he'll be in something next year and *gulp* I'm all nervous about it! He goes to a sitter's four times a week, but still...actually in school?! Hold me!

The Girls' Mommy said...

I think preschools should have one way mirrors, or web cams, or SOMEthing.

The good news is I think two year olds generally ignore each other. They exist in the same room with the same toys and the same teacher and never seem to interact. He'll be good :)